This week my meditation teacher, Susan Piver, said that we can’t cultivate wisdom because we already possess it fully. “It would be like heading out in the morning on a hike to search for your feet–they’re already right there and in fact your ability to hike at all would be non-existent without them… The kind of wisdom we are talking about here is not related to knowledge or even insight, particularly, but to the ground that gives rise to both.”
This resonated for me on all three levels — physical, mental and spiritual.
One. I have two feet. However, due to a spinal cord injury, one leg — hip to toes — doesn’t know where it is in space and its foot can’t feel the ground. The other leg — mostly hip — is weak. But both legs are there, the feet are there, and the ground is there. In order to keep my balance and to walk evenly without falling, I must recognize the awareness I have of my differently abled hips, legs and feet and the ground. So, I practice yoga, swimming, walking and gyrotonic exercise. I am making my best effort… and there is room for improvement.
Two. I have the capacity for Recovery — the Promises of my 12-step program for food addiction. I don’t need to wait for the “click” or for inspiration to go on a diet. I am constitutionally able to be honest with myself. I have the capacity to calmly abide in awareness and recognize that I am a food addict who needs to be abstinent in order to be happy, joyous and free. I abide in that recognition by the daily, rhythmic practice of tools — meetings, phone calls, reading, writing, sponsorship, service, and especially weighing and measuring my food and abstaining completely from all flour and sugar. I am making my best effort… and there is room for improvement.
Three. I have wisdom — the recognition of awareness. Awareness exists. It neither increases nor decreases. It is there in everyone. However, my foggy thinking mind clouds recognition and I forget that I am aware. When I recognize that I am aware, insight arises and knowledge grows. For me, recognition of awareness develops with a daily practice of prayer and meditation. I am making my best effort… and there is room for improvement.
I am not perfect by any means. I’m not half-way through. Still, I’m amazed and grateful at the progress we are all making together!
Thanks to Craig Hankin for this marvelous sketch by Jenny Saville.
Love & Light,
Valerie