Layered rock photo by Bill.
Glitter and be gay? Not today, it seems. In spite of all good efforts and lots of love, I’m down today… in the midst of malaise.
As I walked into the office of acupuncturist, Maureen Quinn, I put on a happy face and she said to me, “Weight of the world on your shoulders today?” How did she know? She told me that’s her job to know.
So, now I’m on my way to see Carrie Cothran, personal trainer with her doctorate in physical therapy and specialty in the pelvic floor. She’s also a very fine person. We shall see if working my muscles helps my mood. It may.
In any case, this too shall pass. And I’m very grateful that the food is not calling me. I call to it and it says, sugar and spice and everything nice just won’t do the trick. Breaking my abstinence from flour and sugar would be one more sorrow on top of whatever else is going on.
I’ll get back to you when I’m feeling better. As my late dad would say, don’t worry ’bout me.
Post Script: Working out with Carrie was great. Afterwards, my emotions bottomed out again. I came home, got into bed with the Sunday New York Times and Miranda, the Labradoodle. We had a good long nap. I feel much, much better.
Love & Light,
Valerie
Hi dearest V, surprise! My mind turned toward your accident as I was driving to my appointment for my monthly eye injection. I gave myself a shake and told myself to remember the woman who prepared tables for fifteen Shabbat visitors. Each time I am brought to tears by recollecting your terrible days in hospital, I do my best to bring your strength and beauty to the front of my mind. YOu are allowed to feel how ever you feel. YOu have been through a massive life change. I hope though, that you let the sun warm you today, and that you soon will again rejoice in having so much love being sent your way! Devotedly, mom
Mom, you are an inspiration! Thank you. I took a long nap with Miranda, the Labradoodle, and I’m feeling MUCH better. Love & Light, Valerie
Love you girlfriend!
Awwwwww… Love you, too, girlfriend! I’m feeling better after my nap.
I am so glad to reconnect with you through this wonderful blog! Valerie, I remember you at Newfield as light, laughter and serenity. I am glad to read that you can also allow yourself the “down day.” Sharing it is even better. The only way forward is to own all that we are!
With love and gratitude for sharing your journey!
Thank you, Alison! How wonderful to take in this message from you. I appreciate it very much. Love & Light, Valerie
Glad to hear you feel better. Everyone is allowed to have down days. You did the best thing- climbing in bed with your Miranda and slept. Maybe the down feeling was just your body telling you to take a good nap. A good nap can heal a lot.
Thank you, Betsy! I’m feeling much better this morning. Phew. Love & Light, Valerie