Tag Archives: abstinence
Thanks for the help
Nine days ago, I had the mother of all panic attacks. (Not a good mother. A very, very bad mother.) We had just turned out the lights to go to sleep. It started. I turned to Gregory and said, “I’m having a panic attack.” He said, “Go get a Klonopin.” I did. And then […]
The rough places smooth
My unconscious was waving at me in recent weeks… through my dreams and other signs. Something hidden in the dark wanted to be revealed. Love was looking for a way. I did what I could to ignore the messages… You can imagine what happened.
What is being done
This morning I heard, “Program is not a sentence.” I am not jailing myself. I have not committed a crime. There is no punishment. This is not a program of discipline. It is a program of observation.
Days of Awe & Reflection
Day 1 I write these posts for the food addict who still suffers… including me. I don’t say that for your pity or admiration, but as a caution that my experience, strength and hope is tempered by food addiction. Last night I broke after a week of abstinence with what I am sure would […]