Day 2
Thank you for your messages and phone calls! They helped so much. I am in a better place, feeling forgiveness for my mis-steps and happy to focus on cultivating the habits necessary for contentment in this crazy life.
I was amazed when I read the 24 Hours a Day book yesterday. Here I was, utterly defeated, starting again from scratch, and the reading for September 17 was “Step One is… “. What a lovely gift of serendipity. I get to start at the beginning and there is help available in the tools of Recovery.
This morning, Miranda-the-Labradoodle, woke me at 5:32am. We went for a walk. I said the Serenity Prayer on the walk; came home, made coffee, got on my knees, bowed three times to the Buddha, the Dhamma and the Sangha; said the Serenity Prayer again and requested, “May all beings be well, happy and peaceful.”
Then, I sat, cross-legged in my meditation place, checked my prayer list for those I am holding in the Light, and read the 24 Hours a Day book. For September 18 it addressed Steps Two, Three and Eleven. The Meditation and the Prayer for the Day spoke to me about Quiet Time. The perfect message for this morning, thank you G-d.
My final step in preparing for Quiet Time was to open “Light to Live By – An exploration in Quaker spirituality” to a random page. On page 9 was this, “So the first step to peace is to stand still in the light – the light that reveals whatever is opposed to it… Because this is where grace grows, where God alone is seen to be glorious and powerful, and where the unknown truth — unknown to the world out there — is revealed.”
I did my Quiet Time. Now I am writing. Later I will make 3 outreach calls, eat my weighed and measured meals, get my hair cut, go swimming, do grocery shopping, and open my mail… among other work around the house. The day will unfold as it will. I do my best to live in Recovery no matter what.
Love & Light,
Valerie